My Mothering Self

1. Since I've not been a teacher: I've been sad. I've been keening and wailing. Spent almost three hours violently weeping. I see mothers with thier small children, and I smile, and then my heart sinks into my toes and I feel so alone. My Mothering Self mourns. I created a child character. Gave her her own series. Started the youth benefit comic. Still, feels like oxygen had been removed from air. How do you mother, when you've no children? Nobody to give that care to?